Sunday, July 10, 2011
Developing a sense of racial hate, any advice or honest thoughts on this matter?
Well basically i am starting to have a hate for Caucasians. I do not want to become what i have always despised but i feel it is starting to creep up on me. It is starting to effect the way i view people i find myself making stupid comments whenever i see a white person make a mistake or perform reckless behavior. Although i am totally aware that anyone from any race would do the same. I have to quickly catch myself after saying things like, "oh yes it had to be a white guy" Or "white people think they have the answer to everything" I notice with a lot of whites there is favoritism. Young white people my age usually have loud music playing and loud cars that disrupt the neighborhood. When young blacks have loud music playing it becomes an issue. I have a white friend but as with the rest im starting to want nothing to do with her more and more. The reason being, sometimes she would ask me of what i thought were stupid questions. She would be shocked when i would simply tell her i used a comb brush along with my natural Bristol brush i would tell her well did you know we all don't have the same hair texture? I feel as though i would be explaining things to a 3 year old and she should be smart enough to know that. I dont ask retarded questions about you because i know, with it being common sense. My husband would say she was just curious and really didnt know. I am a black female my grandmother is in fact white and mother is mixed. My husband is also mixed with a white mother. I have totally cut my grandmother out of my life and want nothing to do with her. My husband does not approve of my behavior and has clearly stated he does not like the hate i am starting to develop. Whenever someone speaks to me if they are white i reluctantly do the same. I avoid them at all cost. When i face a white person i do not see them as a person, i see them as a color. Believe it or not there are black people who i cannot stand for the life of me, i also avoid those. Those are the ones who are loud, full of drama and show no type of class. They also ask idiotic questions like, " do i use perms in my head" I would think wow a perm is usually used if you want curly hair don't you mean relaxer? I would say, "no i don't really need one" if i just use a flat iron the morons would say i had a relaxer done. When they ask stupid questions, i give stupid answers and they view me as the one with attitude. Im finding myself to have less friends because they cannot be trusted. I feel whites have issues that they will not talk about. Instead they will talk about you behind your back to others and act like everything is ok but you can tell that something is not right but on the internet you see the true side. Blacks will talk behind your back then will act mean and snobby because they really dont like you. Then if you make them mad once they will blow the sh*t way out of proportion when you didnt think there was a problem to began with. I am not trying to be funny at all. I know im not the smartest person in the world and im not saying i am. I realize this racial hate is STUPID, but why am i letting it dictate my actions? I know im not in the red zone, i am curious about other peoples opinions however if you cant tell me in person then don't put it on here and its just that simple. Just be real, you know what you would and wouldn't say to a person that's asking you in a physical discussion group.
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